The One With The Fear

Yes I know. It's been a while isn't it? It's almost a year since I last updated this blog. Many things happened. Well, to be fair, a year is a long time..or is it? So what triggered me to update this miserable blog of mine?

Fears.
Yes, I have fears.
Fear of losing something precious to you.
When you have nothing to lose, you have nothing to fear.
I wasn't afraid before.
I had nothing.
Therefore, I had nothing to fear.

Now I have the fear.
I have the fear every single day.
I fear that I'll lose her.
I fear that things won't work out the way I hope.
I fear that I will wake up one day and it's all just a dream.
I fear that she'll tell me she doesn't feel that way about me anymore.
I fear that she'll tell me it's over.
I fear that I won't be able to see her again.
I fear.